across oceans, looking at zion.

this site is blowing me away. really. such inspiration, so many amazing things. i read over everything last night and the concept is just beautiful.

i had this incredible two hour conversation last night, and by the end my mind was full of so many things. i was so encouraged to hear someone's testimony. it never gets old, hearing how God has shown his power and his mercy and seeing Him work in their lives. i love that.
but then so much more! so much beauty, so many amazing things that people are doing in God's strength and with the gifts He has given them. this conversation challenged and encouraged and inspired me so much. i drove over the harbour bridge just rejoicing and praising God for how wonderful He is.

i have had such little sleep in the last few nights that i am only half existing, weaving in and out of consciousness and feeling overwhelmed a lot. i need to be more disciplined because i want to be the kind of teacher who constantly loves and challenges her students... not a lazy, tired, irritable teacher.


there are more things i could say (aren't there always?) but i will stop talking to you now, and start talking to my creator, because that is more joy and privilege than i can explain.

reaching out towards eternity.

church tonight was a wonderful reminder of questions i need to ask and be asked.
like do i talk more about what jesus has done for me than about jesus himself?
because as i grow in the spirit i should see jesus as bigger and myself as smaller.
am i more captivated by what i see in jesus, or by my own experience of seeing it?

this restlessness in me that demands a spiritual refreshment is just a hunger to know him more. and i do that through reading and praying. how will i ever know more about jesus if my bible remains shut?
i should be dissatisfied with the world and current circumstances, but i shouldn't be longing for a spiritual experience that bypasses my own time spent speaking to and listening to jesus.


these things are so true.


and this: God could not have been better to me. ever. in any circumstance. at any time. in any experience. he has always done the best thing. always.


i came on here wanting to write about other things, little things. but perhaps i will save them for tomorrow. these truths carry so much weight, and i want to feel them.